Author Archives: annzimmerman

Most alcoholics/addicts have a healthy streak of perfectionism In my case, it was enhanced by survivalism, feeling the need to stay at least one step ahead of the game, and know what’s coming before it gets there. Be ready, all the time. They call it hypervigilance in mental health circles, but it really doesn’t matter what you callContinue reading “Perfection”

I just experienced a talk, a sermon to be precise, that offered an interesting and somewhat refreshing definition of salvation. I am not a religious person; I belong to a Unitarian Universalist congregation precisely because of the dearth of religiosity there. That in and of itself raises other issues but that’s not related to salvation. The sermon IContinue reading “Salvation”

Posted this on Facebook earlier… I like cold weather. This year and last have robbed me of snow, which always gives me such joy. I feel alive when it’s cold, like I would be ready to fight if necessary. I’ve always felt as though I needed to be ready to fight, and when I’m tooContinue reading “Dreams”

So. I am to write a page on my interpretation of purpose. Well, if I knew what it was I wouldn’t be taking courses and reading books about it. I’m reading a book now that appears to reframe “purpose” as “vocation”, and that seems to make a little more sense to me. Vocation is what feeds my spirit whenContinue reading “Purpose”

So. Here I am, poor little me, all by myself and trying to do…something. Actually, I’m setting a few goals, keeping this place reasonably clean, moving along with doing things I said I would do whenever I had some money. In the middle of that, here comes the curve ball from the cosmos – your liver enymes areContinue reading “WTF are liver enzymes anyway?”

So, yeah, I’ve been musing over visionaries, prophets, leaders who propel others toward their vision of how things should be. Some people say it’s an agenda, but it seems to be the active sight of a different way. I suppose the problem comes in when one must rely on others to change their walk inContinue reading “Visionaries”

What I want to tell you about are things I know, but never learned. What I want to tell you is that some things cannot be learned, only experienced. Some things are not supposed to make any sense, or be entirely acceptable but they remain a part of our reality. I want to tell you what I knowContinue reading “Aging like a kid”

So, today is my birthday. 63 years ago I crash landed here…well, actually about 1100 miles south and west of here, but that’s irrelevant. I imagine they thought I’d come before Christmas, but I didn’t. They might have thought I’d come around New Year’s, but I didn’t. I split the gap, right down the middle, and came 4Continue reading “Missing Pieces”

So, here we are again (and yes, that I the royal we). A day before my birthday, many days after I involuntarily began the latest phase of adulting. Adulting is highly overrate, exhausting, and often non-productive. In my irrational and oppositionally defiant mind, it’s an exercise in doing what everyone else wants, playing by everyone else’s rules, andContinue reading “Around the corner”

I am having some weird issues lately, and I suspect this is what I’ve heard Brene’ Brown describe: “Sometime in middle age, the Universe pulls you close and whispers in your ear, ‘I’m not fucking around.’ ” Life has been sort of like travelling through the Kuiper Belt, dodging asteroids and planets interrupted. One thingContinue reading “Random Things”