We forget quickly, but events in this world have been speeding by at dizzying speed since the new millennium dawned. I remember strange things, horrible things, that are no longer mentioned in the public square. My surety these days is that none of what we’re seeing now is new. The hatred and intolerance, the greedContinue reading “Memory”
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What is this, and why now?
OK,so we’re going to be “in charge” of Venezuela now. For a little while, they say. I wish we could be “in charge” of the United States for a little while, because it seems as though no Americans are in charge of it at this point. Highway to Hell is where this road goes. ThisContinue reading “What is this, and why now?”
Fear,and its better friends
Fear, anxiety…lions and tigers and bears, oh my. Fear is sometimes the appropriate response to a stimulus, such as the stimulus of being approached by someone with a loaded gun pointed in your direction. Unfortunately, people who are wired as I am often do not progress beyond the fear response and become frozen. I’ve neverContinue reading “Fear,and its better friends”
Eden, still
So, let me get this straight – the President of the United States believes that he can “take over” municipalities in the United States. Claiming that crime is out of control in many cities, namely those led by Democratic mayors, he intends to save the day by sending in Federal troops. He sent Marines andContinue reading “Eden, still”
When It’s Cloudy
When it’cloudy, I find myself looking to the sky, expecting something more. Cloudy often seem to precede a significant change in the weather pattern, like the frontage of a storm. Perhaps I am always expecting more from basic omens, possibly because I cannot rely on my intuition to foretell what’s next. IIn many areas ofContinue reading “When It’s Cloudy”
It’s Christmas Eve…and?
It’s Christmas Eve, and a couple of days after the Winter Solstice. The latter is more significant for me, but even though December 24th is not particularly important for me in any theological manner it still feels quietly sacred. Perhaps all days are sacred in some way, but that’s another discussion. There is a partContinue reading “It’s Christmas Eve…and?”
It’s A Day
There is always a day after. Today is the day after the Winter Solstice, and the day should be a few seconds or minutes longer than yesterday. I’m not entirely sure what to do with more daylight, since right now it’s cloudy and the time gain is mostly negligible. It’s the cycle of the year,Continue reading “It’s A Day”
Now what?
So. Here I am. I’m not entirely sure where that is, but it is what it is. Or maybe it’s not. Maybe I am filtering reality based on my expectations, or lack thereof. I’m disconnected, befuddled, and clear on that. I’ve been through deaths of loved ones, death of myself on more than one occasion,Continue reading “Now what?”
If I could show you
If I could show you how it is to be me for a day, I’m not sure I’d want to. Not sure I’d want anyone else to feel the way I do every moment of every day, confused and cloudy and entirely ill at ease…although you might finally understand. Then again, maybe you wouldn’t understandContinue reading “If I could show you”
Wondering
I actually wrote this a few months ago, when I was buried in the angst-laden detritus of this real time whatever the fuck this is. Life? Time? Reality? It is what it is, and most of it is persistent so I’ll bring it up from the nether region and let it fly. Things seem veryContinue reading “Wondering”