Author Archives: annzimmerman

I am of that age. That age when one begins to question their means, and their ends, and finds the ends didn’t justify anything. The body count is more than I can tally on both hands and both feet, people I will never see again, never feel again, never be again. I will never beContinue reading “As time goes by…”

Posted earlier on Facebook… I am heavy with grief and impending loss and incalculable sadness. My cousin texted me earlier today, saying that she has put my aunt – my mother’s sister – into home hospice care. I have been thinking a lot about her lately, and had a feeling that she was declining. MyContinue reading “You say goodbye, and I say hello”

What would I do with my one wild and precious life? Not a fucking clue. I suppose I would just go wherever it took me? I suppose that is what I’m doing now. So now I have this job. In so many ways it’s a drea job – work from home, build on the skillsContinue reading “Whistle while you work”

I posted the bulk of this on Facebook earlier, but I suppose I’m not quite done, and I suppose that’s a good thing. For quite a while I have had way too much time on my hands, reliving the past, screwing it up in brave new ways. Now I don’t have quite as much timeContinue reading “Three hits”

So, yeah. I’m wondering if it’s still work if you kind of like doing it. I got a job. Finally. Mercifully. In all seriousness, though, I am incredibly grateful. It’s a contract that is funded at least through the middle of October, but there is talk it might be extended. I am learning new things,Continue reading “It is what it is”

So yeah, another December that I’ve managed to come through unscathed. My sobriety birthday is in December, and my “belly button” birthday is in December. Then, of course, there’s Christmas and that kooky energy. December was always my favorite month because of all of those markers, but since my mother died it feels bittersweet. IContinue reading “I survived”

Today is a day of contemplation and caramel-coconut Oreos, a day of intentional nothingness. I have now watched “It’s A Wonderful Life” three times. Fortunately, it’s my favorite movie. There is no place I need to be or anything I need to do, so it’s just a day without expectations or disappointments. I am wonderingContinue reading “Am I ready?”

It’s time for people to act stoopit. It’s the winter holiday season, which is truly a holley daze. It’s different this year, though, what with COVID and all. Not sure how many people will be putting a pack of masks under the tree, though. When I was a kid, there was always the cadre ofContinue reading “The holidaze”

Ya know, I am not going gently into the good night of aging. I’m frustrated and annoyed that I’m just now figuring out that some of the “failures” I’ve had along the way may not be entirely my fault. It’s not even a question of forgiving myself, just having the benefit of more information. ForContinue reading “I’m too old for this”

I was incredibly frustrated a few days ago following the disastrous one-way video interview I submitted in search of a job. It was a terrible offering, and I wouldn’t have hired me based on that. The experience brought me down quite a bit, and I began feeling sure that I would probably never work againContinue reading “Hope, hopefully”