online journal – Page 2 – The Sound Hole

Some days

Some days, it is harder than others to be me. Today, it’s more challenging than others, but I suppose there is still room for gratitude. There is also room for frustration, anger, and general pissiness. I am frustrated, angry, and more than generally pissy. I have the flu. or some kind of respiratory unpleasantness. SinceContinue reading “Some days”

What’s the buzz, tell me what’s happening

Yeah, so I am not entirely sure wtf is going on with me right now. I hope it’s just a bit of holiday blues, state if the union insanity, randomly floating melancholia. All of that sounds plausible, but I feel rather flat, blase’, too pooped to pop, deflated, out of good ideas. I’m listening toContinue reading “What’s the buzz, tell me what’s happening”

How it is

I wrote this for a presentation I made to commemorate Juneteenth. Many people are confused about exactly what is being celebrated, and how the celebration – or lack thereof – continues to shape my walk through the world, sometimes hopefully and sometimes despairingly, but never losing sight of how I am enslaved to a greatContinue reading “How it is”

None of this is new

My $.02 for today, which is worth a negative $.087 if you factor in current inflation rates… Yes, now they’ve come for the weather service, and the oceanic and atmospheric administration. They’re always coming for Medicaid, Medicare, and Social Security. Somewhere in there, they came for FEMA. Going after FEMA and setting it up toContinue reading “None of this is new”

A random Thursday

So, here’s the thing. I am realizing just how high-maintenance I really am. Had an incredible time speaking at the UU service last week. It went very well, and I actually got a standing ovation when I was done. Then I came home. That was so exciting I needed a nap a couple of hoursContinue reading “A random Thursday”

Faith?

I slept reasonably well last night, so as usual I woke up with my brain fully engaged in thoughts, wonderings, musings, etc. I reflected particularly on a conversation I had with one of the PAs on my care team (yeah, it’s a full team, quite a few people now) about faith. It began as mostlyContinue reading “Faith?”

Repeat

So, here we are again, one click lower down on the scale than before in a way. I’m broke again, and one of my solutions may be gone soon; Social Security is on the chopping block at the Capitol. Bleh. I am not sure what they imagine people will do without subsidies. We will notContinue reading “Repeat”

Gaia in a pinch

Lately, I am finding it very hard to be enthusiastic about environmental issues. I can’’t muster up the pom-poms for Earth Day or recycling or sustainable crops. Those issues seem far overshadowed by the reality of people being snatched off the streets by immigration enforcement thugs. These people are being literally disappeared, taken forcibly toContinue reading “Gaia in a pinch”

Hype

I’ve known all along that divinity is equipped with a sense of humor. We have news. Fake news, bluster, advertising, propaganda, lies. Falsehoods. Not the damned truth by any means. Every resume’, every job application, every interview is filled with images of self that probably originated in the carnival house of mirrors. Putting your bestContinue reading “Hype”

And now for something completely different

I just posted something I wrote in the middle of the night on March 28th. It was one of those weird nights when I couldn’t sleep if my life had depended on it, and I had no idea why. Something was trying to get out of me, and I wasn’t allowed to rest until itContinue reading “And now for something completely different”