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What, exactly, is the real world right now? Let’s see…the volcano in Iceland is still pulsing lava fountains several hundred feet high, every five minutes or so. It’s hard to conceive of that much-molten rock on the move beneath the surface and straining for release. It’s not showing any signs of dissipating as of thisContinue reading “The Real World”

For some bizarre reason, I was just musing about the recent phenomenon of resistance to status quo by accusing agents of change of implementing “cancel culture”. This seems to be primarily a tool of dominant culture, utilized when there is some innovation or change to routine introduced by non-dominant culture or those who align withContinue reading “Cancel”

I’m sitting here, writing because…I don’t quite know what else to do. Things are still not quite OK in my world. I’m still not feeling settled, comfortable, safe. I’m telling myself that everything will be fine, but it feels as though I’m whistling in the dark while going past the graveyard, wondering if there ghostsContinue reading “One more thing”

If I could have genetically reproduced, or wanted to, I would have spawned this dog. She is me, and I am her. She is a short, chubby, anxious little beast with a bark much more potent than her bite, which she reserves for me alone. She makes a lot of noise, just for the hellContinue reading “What my dog taught me”

…Hope you got your things togetherHope you are quite prepared to dieLooks like we’re in for nasty weatherOne eye is taken for an eye… (“Bad Moon Rising” – Credence Clearwater Revival) Ya know, there are days, and then there are days. Sometimes they come all at once. Sometimes they start off quite unobtrusively, then morphContinue reading “Bad moon rising”

My writing prompt today asks about childhood friends. My very first thought was that I didn’t have any. I played, sometimes, with other kids but mostly it was me and my mother doing…whatever. This was after we moved to New Orleans. Before that, in Lake Charles, I don’t remember anything more than being with myContinue reading “Never young”

It was bright and sunny this morning, clear sky, with temperature about 66. Very nice, the Earth inviting me out for a meet and greet. I was able to relax and just take in the ambiance. I checked the weather forecast, and it said 30% chance of rain this evening, about 8pm. So now, atContinue reading “Whether or not, weather”

Yesterday was Mother’s Day. A complicated day for me, full of memories I want and memories I don’t want. Memories of another life, another time, another place. And that’s not to be overly dramatic, either. I have come to view my life experience, up to now, as somewhat of a civil war inside myself. PartsContinue reading “The heart of me”

Today is Mother’s Day. It’s Sunday, May 9th, 2021. The sun is out, at least here. I’m sure it’s not in some other parts of the land, the continent, the planet. All a matter of perspective. Mothers are a matter of perspective as well. I loved my mother. Truly I did. But that came laterContinue reading “Mothers. Not today.”

My loyalties have always pulled me in different directions. The larger issues surround family, race/culture, and sexual orientation. I have always felt as though how I appear in each of those niches didn’t entirely match how I appeared in the others. I have always felt as though I couldn’t be all of me, and theContinue reading “Loyalty”