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A question comes up from time to time, in activist space, in philosophical and solution-making space – if not now, when? I think we are in “when”. It’s now, it’s here, it’s…when. It’s now. We never counted on now and when being the same thing…we presumed now and THEN were different things, I believe. Then…past,Continue reading “This is when”

I’ve always liked the song “Losing My Religion”, by REM…one of the verses says: Consider thisConsider thisThe hint of the centuryConsider thisThe slip that brought meTo my knees, failedWhat if all these fantasiesCome flailing around?Now I’ve said too much So, yeah…what if all the fantasies come flailing around? What if what we are fighting for,Continue reading “Losing my religion”

OK, back to me. I’ve been through reflection on what’s missing in my life, and settled on a primary missing component that I name as sense of well-being, sense of confidence, lack of feeling that I’m OK. All of that, wadded up and thrown at the wall, is fear and reluctance to be vulnerable, toContinue reading “Back to life…”

Posted to Facbook earlier today…almost lost it, too. I had a near breakdown until I found it again and got it posted! Harlem BY LANGSTON HUGHES What happens to a dream deferred? Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? Or fester like a sore— And then run? Does it stink like rottenContinue reading “Harlem”

So, I’m still working on what’s missing. I still don’t think I’ve quite hit it yet. Let me see if I can get at it more directly. Here is one thing I think is missing – a sense of purpose. I don’t yet know exactly why I’m here. I feel as though I am wandering,Continue reading “Not quite”

Posted on FaceBook earlier today, sans picture: Confirmation hearings for Judge Merrick Garland, nominee for Attorney General, are expected to begin this week. Garland, of course, was President Obama’s nominee for Supreme Court, but Mitch McConnell refused to bring it before the Senate for action. This confirmation was also delayed for a bit, again courtesyContinue reading “Futility”

OK, so yesterday I was supposed to be talking about what might be missing from my life, and I said that I was missing. Well, that’s a pretty broad topic, especially if I keep eating Rice Krispies treats all day, but regardless…not sure if I really came to a graceful end of that topic. What’sContinue reading “Lost and not found”

I was just reading something about how to fulfill your dreams, or at least manifest your plans (two entirely different things, in my book), and the question asked was “What’s missing?”. Hmmm. Interesting question. What IS missing that leaves me unfulfilled and incomplete. Truth be told, I’m not sure I’m incomplete, but I feel likeContinue reading “I’m missing”

I believe I’ve contemplated the definition of work before. It’s something you do with your energy, to … do something. Move something. Shift something. Right now I do not have work that produces a monetary income, so that’s a bit of a pain in the arse. I do not miss the deadlines, the conformity, theContinue reading “What is work?”

Sometimes there aren’t words adequate to communicate one’s feelings, sentiment, reaction. For instance, “fuck” is sometimes the only appropriate response that encompasses the passionate feeling that needs both a sound and emotion. “Oh, no!” just doesn’t even begin to capture the feeling of “no, no way, are you kidding me, or you serious, that canContinue reading “Just…ugh”